My Life As A Wizard: I'm sick of this.

20:52 30th Jan 2012

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Tags: boyfriend gay ...........i'm just ranting now.ignore.

I’m sick of this.

I’ve tried.

Time and time again I’ve tried.

Why should I have to change for him…..or why should I always be the one trying to be perfect for him. I work hard to make him happy. I love him. Maybe it’s still too soon to say that, but I do. I can’t change that.

I’ve tried to like his music, and I’ve succeeded some. I’ve tried to understand to his love for video games. I get it, it’s part of who he is. I understand that he doesn’t find academics as important as I do. That’s always been a priority of mine, but I get it’s not him. I get he’s not too guyish when it comes to taking care of his body…he’d rather have gummy bears any day of the week than eat carrot sticks for a snack. I get it. It’s him.

But, he wants me to like his music.

He wants me to like his games.

He tries to get me to loosen up about academics.

And he doesn’t find importance to working out.

I do.

And I don’t get why I should try and like his things when I don’t get the same things back.

Just yesterday he told me he wishes I liked video games so he could share things with me, but as I’ve said, it’s not me. I’m trying though.

So why doesn’t he give an equal trade?

He clearly tells me when he doesn’t want to listen to whatever has me excited. Shouldn’t he at least try? I do, even if I don’t like video games.

I’m a guy who likes design. I’m not forcing him to like it. I just wish he’d understand that it’s something fun for me. I don’t want him to fall in love with musicals like I do, but I wish he’d say, “Sure let’s watch a musical just because you’d like to” or, “I’ll listen to this song because even if I don’t like this, I will do it for you.” A friend of mine has a slightly long distance relationship with her boyfriend. He watches Pretty Little Liars for her, just so she can rant to him about it. I’m not asking for such a big thing….just a movie every now and then…a song. But yet I’m expected to watch My Little Pony for him.

Honestly, is it too hard for him to extend the courtesy to me, to try and get what I like?

I just don’t get it.